TiMe ThRoUgH aN HoUrGlaSs

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Ok, here's the thing. I went for my cca chalet last night, or rather, 2 nights ago. So there was this passing down ceremony of the current ex-co to the new batch of ex-co. And during that whole 20-30mins, I guess you can see the "fakest" side of me when all I did was just smile and clap while I was bleeding in my heart, controlling myself not to tear nor shout nor walk out of the bloody door. Well, apparently some of them saw through my not so real "fake" smile and 1 gal (whom i know have something against me) shouted "Jiahao, why u so sad". At that very moment, all i wanted to do was to really slap her bloody face and ask her to shout the fuck up. But i just smiled and walked away. I mean, hey, I saw at least 5 other disappointed faces, so I believe I have the right to emo at that time too?

I don't wish to commment much since the new committee has already been elected, well... apparently much earlier before the chalet, and i trust and respect that the previous ex-cos have their reasons for choosing whoever that have been chosen. But I'm kind of disappointed about how some GOOD classmate of mine wanted to hide the news of HER promotion from me before the chalet.

All in all, I'm just kind of disappointed at the fact that the hardwork I'hv put in over the past year was not recognised. AND SCREW THE FUCKING PEARLS SYSTEM! I HATE YOU! JUST BECAUSE I'M NOT A FUCKING COMMITTEE MEMBER, ALL I CAN GET IS P! P! AND MORE Ps! EVEN IF I DO A GAZILLION EVENTS! Though I am blur at times, I'm still at my right of mind to tell myself that: Hey! Why work so hard when even though you put in the same effort as them, you still get 1 fucking point when they can get 2-3 points instead.

I'm planning to join sgnew wave, but since I'm already in 3 clubs at the moment, I guess I will wait till sem 2.2 before making any wrong moves again.

Anyway, I have straightened out my thoughts while watching the sunrise alone. I came to lots of conclusions for many many thoughts, that is to not think about them. Btw, I swear that that was the most beautiful sunrise I have ever seen. And I LOVE the mosquito bites SO MUCH!

I guess this is one of the most explicit post I have posted since like... a year ago? Try sensing that great amount of disappointment in me yea.

- the greatest sunrise i'hv ever seen SO FAR in my life
by Dj Z @ 4:39 PM